偷心

戀愛要怎麼一直 high﹖

就是要愛上
遠在異鄉
不認識我的那一位。

就迷他搞笑可愛
就戀他表演歌唱
不必困擾他臉色
不需牽掛他心情。

感情要怎樣不煩惱﹖

就是要獻給
總有界限
交不到本人的那位。

不是幻想編得美
是沒牽連鬆得多

因為那種愛
不用他還的。

In Their Shoes

An interesting article written in an entertaining style:
Living free with Linux: 2 weeks without Windows

Fire

This fire that takes years to burn up
takes years to cool down,
and I don't know if now
it is in embers or ashes; but

The fire that cools over the years
warms like an old blanket,
and maybe for people like us
it does need to slow down; so that

This fire that warms just comfortably enough
can grow in the mind as it does in the heart,
knowing who we are without each other
and how we want to be when together; because

The fire that grows in the mind
finds us kindling the fire anew,
even if it may take years further
to burn and to cool and to settle or leave; who can say.

Spring Cleaning, Summer Memories

After sticking with me through 4--5 residencies over 5--9 years, my old lecture notes finally have to go. D: I'm going to move out of our rented unit at the end of this month, and this time to a single room, so 90% of the two boxes is going to the government's recycling program.

The remaining 10% is kept more for nostalgia than for usefulness. XD Well, most of our need for references go to the internet nowadays, so these search-unfriendly notes are never really put to good use. But modeling the fickle romance of Romeo and Juliet as ordinary differential equations is something rather worth treasuring. And I can probably get a good laugh from my first English essays some time in the future when I get over the embarrassment to re-read them (which I couldn't this afternoon).

Most of the similar entertainment still have to go, though:

The doodles on the margin...
(pictorial puns of scientific terms, "very sleepy", manga faces, lecturers' faces, "homework sucks let's party" <-- definitely not me but I couldn't remember who)

The colorful flags stacked to a rainbow sequence...
(up to blue, at least)

The hideous line-printer printout of pages and pages of code...

The tiny handwriting crammed on two-sided three-columned cheat sheets...
(I don't think they were quite useful even back at that time)

The self-commentary triggered while I went flip, flip, flip:
("no idea what this is", "last time got this meh?", "last time took this module meh?" ...ehm)

Some of the notes are not even from a module I took; they are notes passed down from my seniors. Ah, sorry that the inheritance stops at me then. Should've learned from them and passed the burden down to unsuspecting juniors, lol.

Still have quite a lot to get rid of. I am still attached to my novels and CDs so they're going to burden me for a while longer. Original packaging of my various electronic gadgets... hm. Not sure what to do with the printer. Computer table will probably be left to the landlord. Some textbooks will probably go to our unofficial library in the lab if I don't manage to sell them.

Well, let me know if you have any use for the things I'm considering to abandon as mentioned above. =)

Look, The Sun!

Leave it to me to learn life lessons from mangas and jdoramas and variety shows..


[About 'sleeping early, waking early'] The day feels really long!
-- Inagaki Gorou (SMAP), Utaban Dec 2007

(Translated courtesy of BNS. And outdated, but backward is the way fandom goes!)

Well, that particular episode is also a funny one, where after that he started bonding with Kusanagi Tsuyoshi (another SMAP member) over LOHAS in gossiping aunties style. Somehow I appreciate SMAP more in this kind of setting, lol. When both my side and theirs are way past the teen era, I suppose.


(Though, why does Kimura Takuya always feel off to me when he's not in a drama? =P)

I usually do it the other way round, trying to prolong my day by going to sleep only when I start nodding off. (No fixed office hours here..) But I contrarily wake up early on Saturdays, and it does feel nice. Hence I feel justified to be blogging already at this hour. ^__^